If anything, please don't forget my face or the things I told you. I could have held you tighter or dressed you up in pretty words or laced you up tight with promises but the ending would have been the same. We threw ourselves into the ocean that afternoon and watched our passion for one another crash onto the sand alongside the foam and crystals of the waves.

one day we'll be ready for each other

But until then, cling to the fact that I am here waiting for you, praying for you, and hoping that you are doing alright. All that is good will be achieved in God's timing so please be patient because He is strengthening and molding both of us right now so that we'll be able to love each other at the same time.

it will be worth it, dear

Please, go ahead.

My heart is filled to the very top with emotions and secrets tha terrify me. You may expose the inconsistencies and flaws of my heart to the world. You might even remind me of my past or the lack of persistency stored there. You might one day tell me that I am illy and insignificantly small, that I am weak and unable to stand up on my own. You may try and convince me that I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, good enough and that there is no way that any person will accept me for who I really am. One day, my insecurities, fears, downfalls, and self douby may be revealed. Your words may sting like papercuts soaked in an ocean of salt but I am convinced that there is one part of my heart that you will never be able to tough or impact no matter how many insults or drawbacks you throw my way and that is the power of Jesus Christ in me. Try as you may, to even attempt to grasp at the promise I have in Christ would be pointless because He is my strength and through Him I can accomplish anything. Try all you like. Tell me I'm purposeless, alone, dumb, and worthless. Call out my flaws and lack of individuality. Remind me of my downfalls and my past, encourage me to fall back into my sinful ways and to believe the words those that are close to me say when I'm not listening. Do it. I dare you. Just know that whatever words or events you throw at me will just make me cling to my Saviour even more. it's going to strengthen my faith in Him and remind me that He is the only constant, able being in my life. His promises are the hope that I live after. Do I need to say it again? The events and put-downs that you throw at me will only cause me to cling tighter to my God which will inevitably strengthen my faith in Him. I will still believe. Go ahead and remind me of who I once was and what that person did or did not do. Let meknow that I have no purpose or gift to give to the world. I'll only prove you wrong.